Kyuon,'Dar Gayein !!!''.
Why?... You've got scared !!!''
By:ArshiHamesha
Written on IF/2012
New year's eve came upon ARSHI full of hopes, dreams, and desires. Desires to be one, to be together, to be unified. The magnetic pull has started since day one yet La has provoked him before leaving "agar tumhari Zindagi mein pyar aa jaye tou hold on it ASR'" [If you find love then hold on to it ASR']'.
He is trying to hold on to it his way by using his brain not heart'. Though heart already has exchanged his heartbeat with her 'the rhythm of which she found first but put a stop sign to it after his declaration of "koi matlab nahi" [it doesn't matter]. She does not want to draw upon the same extreme feelings again. Unconsciously they both jolted together to see each other at this auspicious night and they did by beating all the odds of egoism, engrossed each other completely by ignoring all the surrounding elements, under the stars which were witnessing their Unison moment, in front of Devi Maiyya who was sealing it for them for forever..[Hamesha]
The overwhelming desires made em come too close today that their souls were even yearning and longing to keep no distance and that feared Khushi today. He sensed that fear in her and provoked her with his old trick to get her, to bring a challenge in her to beat him'He called her brainless 'without intellect'hmmm'Nice move Mr. Brainiac...He tried his best to bring her on the surface to make her realize she needs him as much he does but her constant pushing and denial irked him and he left calling her a loser as she is afraid of hurting her heart again' with her belonging, a piece of her green shirt as GREEN is her color which is ready to mingle with him. She is so on for this challenge "Yeh saal humari jeet keh naam hoga"[I will win this year at any cost]. Her constant ignorance towards him and his aspired desires provoked him to put a pause on her ongoing thoughts bringing her back to the core of this process of making her think only about'..Him'. but jerked her with another challenging thought'"chodo rehne do tum seh nahin paoogi" [Leave it, you won't be able to handle it']' But Khushi Kumari Gupta'diverts the inner meaning of his words in fear of this close proximity.."haal chahe behal ho'hum jeet Keh dikhaengey" [No matter what happened, I will win for sure] makes him bow down to her by her silence along with the entire universe around him and in return challenged him.
Arnav's desires are challenging Khushi over and over yet Khushi is not ready to give in. She has accepted the challenge indeed and sealed it by putting her hands in him behind curtains under the fire as Fire is their witness and wind is inflating it.The need for water brought him to seal this deal by shaking dusty, earthy hands together with her. She wants to give in as her heart demands yet mind still is on halt."Humain manzoor hai"[ I accept it..]'Her small confession mingles with his satisfaction.."mujhe bhi.." [ I accept too..] On the other hand, he is burning in this aspired and consumed feelings for her as if "agar mujhe na mili tou meri sanse hi ruk jayengi"[If I didn't get her, I won't be able to breath"].
When he doesn't see her before NK, he throws the arrow of challenge directly at her in front of every one." Shayed challenge se Dar gaye hai'" [may be she is scared with a challenge..] 'She pops out determined than ever ,"hum nahin darte'"[I am not afraid ..] and shows him his reflection in his mirror of EGO' She comes out at the stage in skirt showing off her milky skin to him along with everyone else. She dared him with his challenge which he gave her while giving her mini skirt on that calendar shoot night and couldn't handle her bewitching beauty in draped saree'. "Humain aapki har chanauti manzoor hai'"[I accept every challenge of yours..]and he is helpless in gulping his desires'. But she doesn't stop there'. She accepts his attractive desires by hitting him with a Yellow flower [the color yellow evokes feelings of joy and lightheartedness] and conveying her love to him by adoring his habits which bring a killing smile on his face witnessed by everyone. She made him meeting his human side to his heart and the others by opening her heart to him embracing all of Him the way he is' He couldn't stop adoring and devouring her the very same way as the night of the calendar shoot.
He comes to her to take a confession from her or in other words, make sure she is ready to handle his undeniable and pure love but in a taunting way "Lekin Yahan bhi tumhain Meri zaroorat pad gayi, Meri bina tou jaise koi baat banthi hi nahi tumhari"[ But then You needed me here in your performance too,as if your day is incomplete without thinking of me '] Arnav tries to evoke Khushi towards unknowing feelings that she needs him, wants him, wishes him in his life. Her instinctive thoughts revolve around him remembering him in fear, happiness, and in sadness. He knows how is she feeling as he was afraid and running away from his feelings for her and she is doing the same now.ASR BG scores meaning he doesn't want to stop from his mission today, "Pehle hi ithna kuch kehchukki ho ...[ You already have said enough]' meaning I know what u expect from me He has understood her desire, and it wipes off her smile '..he slowly walks towards her, pinning her on the wall, he huskily reminds her by keeping his intense eyes burning into her soul "Laptop se " He doesn't finish and keep glaring at her to tell her that he got the message of Engagement ring that she needs him to insure as she finishes"tum inki kar do sagaye"[ Make him engaged] Arnav continues,"Aathon pahar dil pe hai taale [ You have locked your heart throughout all the time ] ..
Khushi begins to feel the heat at this point and wants to move but he corners and repeats the same line again by gritting his teeth.. He is clearly conveying to her that his heart which was locked is open as she wished as her command and now it's her turn .. Khushi completes,"Kya Karen yeh hasna bhi na jaane," [What will we do he doesn't know how to smile] Arnav accepts that Khushi wishes seeing him smiling.He reminds her as she's been observing him closely which she denies I fear being as vulnerable.He is not satisfied and jerks her "Why didn't you become ASR'and enjoy being his partner in her act or that what she wants to be unconsciously' "and after failing to do so he called her again brainless 'without intellect' as she is afraid her heart might get hurt again' a BRAIN talk with ego'which showed his frustration for her'.She steps forward this time with determination,"humain aap jaisa bane main koi dilchaspi nahin'humare paas dil hai phele bhi bata chuke hain..'."[I don't wanna become like you as I have a heart..just told you before.] and she touches his heart pointing at the fact he can't have true life with his closed heart as he fears to open it .[He gulps down her finger touching his closed heart..]that infuriates him more than ever'as "Haan nahin hai dil ASR keh seene main'"[Yes ASR doesn't have a heart in his chest']Both are not ready to give in for each other at any cost to understand these are not their weaknesses... there are their strengths which make both of them complete..as one'
The push and pull continue till her tears fell on his hardcore and burned him by consuming all the ego in it and heart takes over his brain to be ready to mingle with hers at her level, at her need by fulfilling his own'.but just for that moment he fulfills her wish and opens his heart'.As the challenge was consuming and reducing both of them equally and then the moment comes to embrace both of them to give in by putting all the fears and egos aside and just mingling heart to heart' as one heart beat'"humari Dhadkane eik ho jaati hain'"[our heart beats become one']'. But saying each others' name with each beat still needs some time, some more challenges to go through as love without the pain of TRUST is nothing not only Khushi is fearless but also he is yet the fear of Trust still resides in both'.as La's words "make sure you never let her go from your life.." still needs him to come out of fear a "Fear of Trust"'
The night The heart, which skipped a beat in front of red beauty'.made her aware of his intentions'.later broke red beauty's heart along with him ''.is surrendering today in front of her heart who wants him to mingle with his color'.Today Red is mingling with green'."Yeh rang tum peh utna bhi bura nahin lagta'."[This color doesn't look bad on you']
As this love story is strange and can't be explained in a couple of words'..It's a silent feeling which can be felt and heard only by souls without fear 'without having a name'..
Indeed!!!
Iss Pyar Ko Kya Naam Doon !!!'''..
