Stargazing/ Epi 123

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"Is my mother happy to see me?" He asks with a tearful voice and hoping that she says yes. She looks at him, knowing exactly what he is feeling, missing at this moment. She always held him and caressed him as a companion giving all the warmth of a mother later, but now she is there to share all the pain the same way she did the other night telling him how does she feel after her parents' death. I always feel pain watching this scene.

Because, as a child, we ask this like many, many times, it is good. we see mother's face if she is happy with us and then that urge becomes a habit, a need, we want her approval, we say that in anger who cares but internally we do desperately. Mother's silence is a killer and here she is dead and he wants to hear her, see her. this is a very touchy scene

Stargazing...He was dying to talk to her by all means and he was the one who made this deal and with every angle and by doing all she proved to him that she will abide by his deal. His tears, His pain is what she can't bear and the same is with him and he broke his deal by asking her an innocent question. Her beautiful answer is what makes him believe in things which he never did before...yes "It is a matter of Belief..." nothing much. If you believe you see the guiding light which follows your heart like no one till you find what you are looking for...with all the answers...

Her talking, yapping acts like a bandage to his wounds, deep wounds, and pain of years. He always becomes upset, angry whenever she stops talking to him. He yells, screams, and does all just to see her on normal terms with him. He misses her when she is not around and her asking him"Are you alright?" is like his life is back on track. He will say this to her later, The moments I spent with you were I always remembered and forgot all..." After the Diwali incident and his pushing her away, this was the moment he found peace. Yes! Khushi and her happiness matters to Arnav Singh Raizada, who claimed on Diwali night, for me you and that moment had no meaning. It doesn't matter to me..."